break-up

The worst part isn't the present. It's the future. All the places you planned to travel. The movies you were going to watch. All the stories you never got around to telling. You realize that it's not going to happen. And it hurts. The loss of a future that was so vivid, so real in your head. Even if a part of you knew you were never going to make it there. You constantly check your phone out of habit, but you're not sure who you're expecting to call. Sometimes you wonder if there's anything left to look forward to. Just working and sleeping. Endlessly. And it's not that you lived for your relationship. It wasn't that big of a deal. But it was hope. It was something different. It broke up the monotony. And now life is back to normal. Everything's the same. But you're not quite.